New Year old drama

a memory drifting from a far off world sits inside my head.


What do I know?

sighs has to start writing in his book again more than just chicken scratch on paper

Its Tuesday !!!

sighs tuesday the last day before my finals start up again sighs.

Ok so here is my current finals plan for anyone who is interested in knowing.

Tuesday: finish 2nd history paper and get history final completed

Wednesday: turn history final in and prepare for chem final

Thursday : take chem final =( and finish packing

Friday : check out and lose my net for a month and a half

Saturday : go home and start talking to my bf on the phone only sighs

so that is the plan in other news my birthday is coming up next month =) and hopefully i will get to see my bf within a few days of my bday! what else is new hmmm.... People have started to move out of the dorms already which is good makes the place much more quiet. However it seems most people are leaving friday.

9 days and the first final is over

Theatre appreciation is over for the semester yes, time to party (not still have my arch exam friday, next wednesday my history exam, and then thursday after that i have my chem final.) So i am losing my net for about a month and a half starting may 15th boo!!!!!, but fear not oh faithful readers i will be back. Sighs to go home and see Oreo AKA fat cat OO, and Snickers AKA little baby snickers candy bar who are both know as my cats. Suppose it is my mother's birthday sunday and also mothers day sighs. that is all for now until the penguins take over teh world here i am stuck in college lol.

15 days remain

well today was my last lab of the the semester yes, yes , yes party. that is pretty much all there is to say other than finding out 2 of my high school friends are transfering here next year and we are making plans to host a get together at some point lol.

on the 16th to last day to end of the year

my roommate gave to me 2 stupid kenoshians who will be spending the nights and weekend here damn them all to hell to burn with in the flames i fan. Elsewise today i accomplished: my his 102 map quiz, the start of my arc 100 bog body exercise, my lab questions and take home quiz, my wing meeting and ordering i book i just found out now that i need for my his 102 class sighs hope it gets here before the end of next week or i am screwed. sighs anyway overall angry right now and that is enough said.

the countdown begins 17 days remaining

ok like in the title i have stated i have 17 days of college left this semester and well this semester flew by, and i didn't post as much as i would have liked and well i am sorry dear readers, but here we go, i will keep it short since i still have things to work on tonight sadly.
So things i did this week: cut my foot in lab, fell down two flights of stairs, freaked my bf, skipped 4 classes for a "funeral" well my mourning time, cooked chicken (garlic and lemon, cajun (spelled wrong), and italian, met some of my bfs old friends, helped make shish-kebabs, and got addicted to myspace which my profile is www.myspace/astaraelesteed. and well that is it 4 now

Thursday

Hey all it is thursday and well sorry i have not posted in awhile but had kind of a busy week, the NCUR is here this week (national convention of undergraduate research) which is causing problems and tuesday my bf came and visited me (very happy) and not that much has happened other than that 29 days till the end of semester very happy bout tomorow since my history class has been cancelled due to NCUR issues but yeah happy, going to eat a turkey sandwich and go to my chem discusion section in an hour and take a quiz on thermochemical equilibrium values (not fun =( ) but oh well still working on character bios and sketches to post later. Sighs and 29 days left with the hippo one day at a time and then he is gone still don't know a nationality for my room mate next year since he is an internation student. anywho i am out for today all my blog readers have a good and stay safe (yeah i can talk points out several scratches he has gotten that he doesn't know where they came from) but that is besides the point. Anyway hopes this good weather lasts for awhile or it becomes a thunderstorm hehehehehehehe..... (evil cackling) yeah i know i said i was out but i just keep thinking of things to say lol, so anyway i have a relatively clean and nice dorm room = ) my bf helped me a little when he was here tuesday to clean the room (or really the underneath my bed area) Anyway just playing with Astarael my pet penguin but going to stop and get that sandwich.

The Main character from my book so far

ok finally settled on names for each character and will do bios for each of them along with a drawing and if i can figure out how to use my scanner/printer i will post them with the characters but anyway the names in particular order

Narim - water aligned - weapon harp / music - male
Soleria - fire aligned - weapon twin swords - female
Terran - earth aligned - weapon axe - male
Zelos - thunder aligned - weapon snake sword (sword that splits it self) - male
Gryph - air aligned - weapon bow - female
Liane - nature aligned - weapon throwing daggers - female
Stefeon - light aligned - weapon glaive - male
Grimion - darkness aligned - weapon greatsword - male
Ophelian - dream aligned - weapon chakrum (i hope i spelled that right lol) - male
Romeria - time aligned - weapon Scythes - female
Alec - chaos aligned - weapon spear - male
Ashelia - stars aligned - weapon staff - female

now for the evil characters well sorta

Freya - water - female - silence trait lust
Novus - fire - male - silence trait greed
Orre - earth - male - sloth
Kinto - thunder - male - gluttony
Adis - air - female - Envy
Jocelyn - nature - female - vanity
Valendia - light - female - pride
Lucian - darkness - male - anger
Moran - dreams - male - fear
Clarissa - time - female - sorrow
Jace - chaos - male - charm
Isabelle - stars - female - truth

so there we go now to write out there bios and sketch them lol so yeah this is what i did in my history class while i waited for the proffessor to show up today. Plus vote for ur favorite character from each category in the comments section the ones with the most votes gets done first.

by the way i am voting for Ashelia and Isabelle so who will you vote for ? lol

In other news i have a dorm room for next year finally now the only thing left to do is register for classes which is coming up as well as finals for this year which it looks like i may only have 2 finals during finals week this year yes, yes, yes

In more random news I love my bf cause two tuesdays ago he had off and came to visit me here in the dorms, unfortuantely the hippo ( aka my room mate) was there most fo the time and decidded to bug the hell out of me when i got back, but is all good.

Easter is this weekend there will be no blog posts except maybe sunday night in which it will be kept short most likely the announcement of my funeral after which you r all invited. (well that or a jail sentence)

But anyway happy wednesday to anybody who read this far

yeah a second post

A new game has started am I the pawn or the player
In the end does it really matter if one falls so does the other.
Release my hidden memories, a forgotten past
Thrust into the future but why I am here

The board is slowly coming together
Where I will find the truth
Journey through the places
Player or pawn I must reach them

Stars shine down on me mocking me with their freedom
Lost in the chaos am I, wishing to be free
Time is lost to me, and yet will not pass me by
My dreams are ghosts of old memories and places I have been

Swallowed by the darkness of the world,
But never losing sight of my light that dwells within my heart
My burning passion still rages
Not even the might of the ocean can quell it

Running cross the earth like the wind
And yet still moving as slow as a rock
Thundering and lightning strike but yet
I must guard all of nature from those who seek its destruction

Even though the rain must fall
Does it even cleanse my soul anymore
Who have I been, what have I seen
Where do I belong

A memory of a life I never knew haunts me
Through night and day the feeling of something drawing close
Singing the song of the stars must I as I journey
A nightmare haunts me, the blackness within my soul

After all doesn’t a star shine because it is surrounded by darkness
Do I even shine anymore, powerless to change my fate
Memories of runes, runes that seem to shine
But who I am to think I have such gifts

I am not special, but why then am I haunted.

I've been thinking

sighs thinking, thinking, thinking and i still can't figure out where my bf is hiding my vids on the net sighs i mean really he could just TELL me where they are sighs, other than been with out net off and on for the past two weeks so that is why i haven't been saying much, my bf came and visited me last tuesday for a few hrs and i liked it a lot, finally got to show him around campus and well that was fun, tomorow is dorm sign up for Angell hall which is where i am hoping to live as a sophomore. Sighs just watching bleach right now waiting for my bf to wake up so i can talk to him sighs i miss him. Now for my random words that are running through my head.

Throught twilight skies i fly
feeling the wind beneath my wings
soaring through the clouds towards the sea
the sea colored rose from the sinking sun.

But i am not there i am trapped here on the ground
away from the stars
where does my path go
memories from ages past haunt me so

memories of the lives i've lead
memories of the times i've died
and yet my soul knows no rest
when will the stars give me my rest

journey on i must to find the answer
waiting for the sealed powers within to awaken anew
then i will walk among the stars


sighs i know kind of depressing words but yet seems to describe me even though i am not depressed. sighs still working on my book chapter 3 is progressing i just don't have the time to write but at least the ideas are there. well until next i write

vicious kitties

Arg being attacked by evil kitties named snowball and tips sighs they are my bfs cats and thats really all i have to say mye spring break is half over today boo and well thats it for now sighs my blog

ok here we are its wednesday again

Its wednesday, wish it was friday afternoon so i could be hanging out with my boyfriend instead of trapped here in my dorm room with a hippo, sighs anyway just thought to post something today I recently started watching Kitchen Nightmares and Hell's Kitchen on hulu.com sighs i really miss being able to cook my own food and make it the way i wanted.

last day of febuarary and well i am posting so there

k cause it is the last day of the month of febuary, (spring may be on its way i heard), i will keep the post short like the rest of febuary seems to have flown by. Sigh so anyway writing this before i go eat dinner for the night and then become immobile playing my monster rancher game lol i <3 tigers if you do not know what i am talking about oh well ( I love my hunny too) sighs wishes he could be here, anyway next week starts the dreaded two week period know as midterms sigh, and just when i started to post again there goes my free time sighs and stomach rumbles suppose this qualifies as a post anyway here we go of to dinner we go following the yellow brick road to portabello road sigh people if you didn't get the two referances why are you reading this i mean really you should all understand i referance the strangest things at the strangest times lol, any way while a certain some one is snoring i should probably go eat something, snore snore snore can hear him from here the dreaded hippo lol. (one of two random sleeping people lol) sighs sighs sighs sighs sighs sighs missing my comments on my blog gothby98 where did you go.

sigh missing certain people

i miss am missing people right now and worrying about my classes tomorow and well just not happy overall sighing well blogging is making me feel better so here we go lalalalalala hmmmm sigh so anyway i have to go see little women the musical tomorow more on that one later

AAARRRGGG

I am sick i think i ate something off at dinner tonight, but i will live just feel a little out of it right now sigh wish i was with my boyfriend 16 days till i see him again sigh oh well lets see tomorow for my classes i have a lab and a chem quiz sigh oh well get them done and fall asleep at home

50 posts it is finally here

ok so this is my fiftyth post so to make it special we have got to have a poem ok don't think i've posted this one and if i have it has been awhile

My one desire
To be with you
The passionate fire
Surrounded by the cool blue
Flying through the sky
If this is a dream
I could die
I could scream
Time to be myself
Unlock the riddle
Of my heart
And let myself out
Searching for you
My one desire
We’ll make it though
The burning fire
Seperated by the sea
My emotions
Pointed me
In the right direction
Reaching out for the sky
Leaving worries behind
Spread my wings and fly
No one to say you’re out of line

sigh and how about another one i just made up right now

in twilights shadow
do i dream of you
neither in light or darkness
do you dwell some would say
you are just a dream

If I must dream to find you
again I will sleep until I do
searching every memory
every moment we spent
for clues to where you lie

Till I find you alone standing there
waiting for me gazing at the stars
surrounded by white roses their
petals fill the air I say I love you
but you vanish there a mirage, a memory

I will keep searching till i find my way to you
Sigh why aren't you here with me
Where did you go
why did we have to leave
Just know I will find my way to you


ok i know it doesn't rhyme but just thinking about being apart from my boyfriend and well its are 4 month anniversary friday and yet again I don't get to spend time with him in fact I may just break down that day and start crying in the college theatre during the play i am forced to go see for my theatre app course sigh

sigh in brighter news wait i have brighter news when did that happen oh yes this last weekend and monday i didn't have to deal with my room mate aka Hippo (cause he snores like an injured one and i think he quite resembles one) cause he left to go home and my i think i got the best sleep i have ever gotten in la crosse dorms plus i realized if he ever has to leave college early i would have plenty of space in this room sigh anyway i think that wraps up my 50th blog post btw anyone besides my boyfriend who reads this mindless drivel is ever looking for a love video on youtube search for dragoon1311 and you will find a few good love song vids set to final fantasy game clips

Sigh blog why don't i have the time for u any more

blog where does my time go that i no longer seem to be able to stay on top of u well i guess no complaints in my life so i really haven't needed to vent into the void that is my blog

it's wednesday people

ok i know i have been neglecting my blog i don't mean to it's just i have a few more important things to do. So here is my stuff for the week going to see my boyfriend this weekend, getting back into the anime monster rancher, and yes my first bid on ebay a round of applause (now if only i could win something.) lol anyway word of the week is monster rancher lol i know two words but hey i don't care good luck to all my blog readers out there in blogland

it is tuesday my day off and i accomplished nothing other than establishing the fact i am lazy when i have nothing to do i just sit here and cruise around youtube and send videos i like or find funny to people lol oh well tomorow lets see i have chem, archeology, global changes and transitions and theatre appreciation lol and well at least i won't be bored lol

classes for the new semester have settled

ok finally happy with the way i have my classes arranged could be better but could be much much worse. so here we go only 4 classes this semester and they are chem 104 =second semester sophmore chem, theatre appreciation, global transition and changes, and archeology introduction, well and the lab and discusion that go with my chem course lol, so any way i have 4 classes monday, nothing on tuesday yes that means no classes tomorow, 4 on wednesday, 2 on thursday and 3 on friday

semester number 2 its here

ok just moved into the dorms for the exciting semester 2 everyone round of applause that is all i have to say really tonight too tired from moving lol