Hank Ferrera

that is your name and if you don't stop i will see you banned from campus. And well by your logic you'd be a whore since you had the whore and if you're doing this for the reasons I think you are i wouldn't be able to be with you either than. I love you my dreamish devil and I'm sorry you feel like you have to defend yourself against this man and we are still happy or at least I am. And not that it matters "crazy" but I still don't plan on having sex for a long while so there I stick my tongue out at you.

Melodies of Life

are often heard

and filled with strife

till they fly away on the wings of a bird

okay crazy

just answer one question crazy are you doing this to get back at me or him?

okay crazy is right how crazy is that!

well crazy you are right my bf was a whore and well I don't care so there.

crazy is a ass

sorry for not writing recently I would like to say whoever crazy is and I have a very good idea who he is, is an ass who wouldn't know love if it bit him and I don't care if you've had my boyfriend highly unlikely by the way. I love you my dreamish devil and that's all that matters, leave all the nasty comments you want crazy it will only make me like you less. so there sticks my tongue out at you.

okay post 2 of the day

I love you my dreamish devil, sorry just wanted to start the message with that and well here is my new vid http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CVLDSrUEsM0 so please rate and comment

sorry for not writing yesterday

I was busy making a video for my boyfriend so I didn't get a chance to write yesterday. If anybody wants to see the vid its on youtube and here is a link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8QrT6boA-zk don't judge too harshly as it is my first vid and well I like it so there, okay current projects would be a new vid, finishing chapter 1 of my book and posting it here and what else continue to find all these poems I keep writing. I want to shout out to my boyfriend hi there my dreamish devil, I love you and will talk to you soon. I would like to apologize to all my suitors again I never meant to hurt you if any of you still read this, I just can't control what my heart feels and I'm sorry that at least one of you feels very hurt, I'm sorry all I can do is keep apologizing. sad isn't it I can't give you the things you want yet somehow you all want me, but not with anyone else it's not fair to me I made my choice and I ask that you respect it. That is all for today, I'm not sure If I will post tommorow or not we'll see

I'm sorry to any suitor who reads this before I tell you in person

I'm sorry oh so very sorry I'm not your one. My heart has been stolen and well I like it this way. I'm sorry again, but my heart said yes finally to someone. That is all, all hate mail will be burned or shot down do not waste your time get right back into the game and find the one you're looking for.

okay the first of several poems dedicated to my love

Staring into the reflection
Of my heart now I see
My raw emotion
I can just be me
Once drifting on the waves
Now breaking free
No more wandering the caves
Of darkness in me
Watching the flowers bloom
Their petals floating on the air
My heart going boom
Whenever you’re there
Don’t run away
I give my heart to you
I treasure you everyday
Watching the waves of blue
Secretly loving every moment
I pray its not just my dreams
Never suffering from disappointment
Coming up with new schemes
Not many memories
At least not yet
We’ll make our own stories
That’s my bet

Again really sorry to all my suitors I didn't know it was going to end up this way honestly.

Boo the school week starts it's cycle on more time

Okay it is Sunday afternoon here and just writing about a little of everything I guess. Okay announcements first, I have no class at 7:45 in the morning on Tuesday, I can sleep in yeah!!!! or not, I went to go see my mother today to bring me all of my winter clothes, warm and fuzzy, but that's not the point. Okay officially over the flu yeah!!!!!!! I guess all good news today since I'm feeling generous a short verse for you all hope you like it <3

Okay the verse gods aren't with me right now but before the end of the night (she'll be mine) sorry song from the movie Anastasia popped into my mind here, by the end of the night I'm sure inspiration will strike otherwise it's time for the book to start making it's journey out to the vast web.

Okay my reader question for the day is How are you feeling? leave a comment and the emotional winner shall receive a poem to be published here in my small world blog

okay then till next you read me

okay my late night blogging efforts are here at last my flu has gone away enough that I can sit up and really write this properly. okay I would publicly like to thank the devil (no I am not a satanist) he would be my commentor and one of seven suitors check out his comment to the section below and you'll find him as sweet as I do. so here dedicated to the devil (I won't use his real name so if anyone does read this then he won't be embarassed)

Suddenly the stars light
up my sky
Though we may fight
It's with you I fly

You'd be the fish
I'd be your twin
if that was your wish
cause you can win

my heart
my soul
it's just a start
while the distant bells toll

and this is dedicated to the dreamish devil who is working toward winning my heart, and he is doing a very fine job of it. Hey readers if you want a dedication say and spread the word of this cool new blog and have the person say you sent them and you'll get a dedication.

oh current rankings for the seven suitors in case any of the seven is reading this at this moment some of you are shining some not so you have code names, but you should figure out who you are.

1 Dreamish Devil
2 Mr. Sexy
3 I wanna be bored
4 fire bird
5 My heart's DJ
6 artistic heart
7 embarassed crustation

okay that should include enough secrecy to keep you from finding and challenging each other for my love, all terms are used endearingly and if you want I can change yours but message me in private don't leave a comment here about it, or if you can't figure out who you are.

Hey there my crazy blog readers

okay all two of you maybe out there in internet land. I have the flu. Yeah don't sound so depressed. A spontaneous verse and then I'm out for the day

Once the sun has set
the stars will shine
now nothing is left
you will never be mine

dedicated to my suitor who made me cry but gave me a rose, the devil

Decisions decisons

okay through my craigslist ad I met seven guys who seem interested in me and am now in the process of singling out the ones I don't want, it's a lot harder than I though it would be, and well I wan't expecting so many responses. That's all for today and well I guess here is a new verse and dedicating it to my first commentor and he is an english teacher, yea, round of applause.

Hidden in the shadows
My heart is beating
Not looking through the windows
but rather dreaming

of the one who I will
make my own.
use my skill
to find that tone.

It's a song I never knew
lovestruck straight through my heart.
I'm stuck like glue
on you, right from the start.

Thank you hope all my readers like this one, I think more than one of you finnaly exist! even if you don't leave comments keep reading.

Thursday Night (what a bore)

So far no one out there cares enough to read this. I shouldn't say that, but if anyone besides me does read this then they refuse to comment, booooooo. Yes I'm booing the no commenting readers at least if anyone reads this besides me leave a comment I'm begging you this poem will be dedicated to the first person to comment on my blog, okay, well I have to try something.

Set to wonder
why no one cares
strike with thunder
to avoid the stares.

Someone read
about my stife
about where I lead
my life

pity my you dreamers
lend me your desire
Have pity on me schemers
to find my fire

okay this is dedicated to the first one to comment on anything on my blog. Thank you to whoever does well I guess first you'd have to read my blog and since no one but me has I find that doubtful.

okay this reminds me of my cat and well I just thought since no one is reading this anyway, except for myself I might as well put it here. Today is mole day!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For those of you who don't know a mole is 6.02 * 10^23 atoms or molecules of a substance and today is the day we celebrate this apparently, as I found out in my chem discusion section today. I may end up posting more tonight or not since I'm the only one reading this it doesn't matter. Please somebody read this and leave I comment so I know I'm not doing this in vain.

Hey somebody find this and read it!

Please someone read this. Okay the first in many poems to be added.

Beneath the starry sky,
watching the waves splash on to the shore,
I could fly,
but I want more,

My heart is a stone
you pierced with your words,
all alone,
without and swords.

Would you stay with me
to explore the wonder?
Would you stay with me,
through the thunder?

Finally belonging
within my heart.
This longing,
would we part?

Okay hope whoever reads this likes this. Again I do take requests to do things like short stories and poems. These will either be posted here or sent straight to you depending on what you want.

A New Day (more or less)

okay officially on the Thursday side of the night and well here we go new blog stuff that has changed since I don't know a couple hours. Not much hmmm..... I should really wait until tonight to edit this but I can't sleep so here we go. I'm 18, a college freshman, a chem major, taking 16 credits, the courses being Chem 103, Art Appreciation, Public Oral Communications, Global Origins of the Modern World, and Anthropology 101. Well today it's just Global Origins of the Modern World and Anthropology, at starting at 7:45 in the morning. I don't have any new writings to post at this time, If your reading this then realize this is a new blog and well all three of the posts are new. I live on campus with three roommates who are trying to sleep right now, oh well usually this is the other way around, I'm sleeping and they are not. I think I'm single so if any gay guy in the area of La Crosse is interested here I am, think about age first, I don't need more old perverts trying to have a "relationship" with an 18 year old. (shameless self promotion is something I do well apparently.) as said earlier an support (emotional, not monetary) my readers can give me will speed up the appearance of material and may get you a dedication. Anyway time to sleep. Good Morning (hahaha.... snore)

Well more about me.

Well okay since I just started this blog here is some background info on my current life. I'm going to college and looking for love at the same time. I'm gay so I knew it would be difficult, less than in my hometown a town of less than a 1,000 people, and well I had five interested guys I met through craigslist and it was going all well and good this is about a week and a half ago I guess. Now all of a sudden they all have disappear off the face of the earth for the past 6 days, I mean just what does one have to do to find love? Well now that is out of the way any requests for poems or stories, I write fiction and poems when I'm bored and I guess I'll take your requests into mind the next time I'm writing something. Right now current projects are to finish the first chapter of the book I feel like writing (more details on that in the future) and to find and fix up a collection of old love poems to be posted here cause I still need to find the love of my life. Well I hope somebody is reading this otherwise I just spent this time uselessly. Well leave your responses at benchristopehrson93@yahoo.com if you want to contact me directly (and want a response at any speed faster than a turtle) where I'll read them and if I like what you have to say maybe include you in my next post I think this will be a weekly thing kinda like a reader of the week thing, but the blog will have something new everyday (OMG I have to start thinking about what I'm going to write tommorow!!) so check back often on somedays there may be more than one post depending on how the creative juices are flowing. Any support you may have to offer would be welcome.

Okay my first blog what to write

okay to get this thing rolling how about a poem I wrote I'll mostly post either stories and poems I've written and/or anything funny that happens in my life.

Journeying through my life,
wandering alone,
my heart filled with strife,
a mournful tone.

I walk on to see my dreams
lost in the night of dark,
falling for everyone's schemes
looking for the spark

that will light my torch, my fire.
I keep searching night and day
to find my one desire
So far all my heart has said is nay.

When will I find love
I've been looking so long.
It's like I'm lost in the sea I dove
into just to hear the song.

The melody of my heart,
yet to find it's harmony.
Then I'll never let us part
through any disharmony.

okay this was written about my current feelings on love hence the current question how many of my readers are in love, all none of you.