Finals day 2 the mysterious habits of college students

ok so here is the deal survived day two of finals i bet all of u or glad wither that or u r hoping for my downfall either way lol but today i realized this is my last night in my dorm bed lol wahhhhh and this is also my last post until january 24ish i say ish cause i may not post my first night back anyway peace to all my blog fans i love you all and hope to see you during the january thaw lol.

Finals day one

this is a strange new world i have landed in college finals scary.... anyway they seem pretty easy and hope they continue to be so lol sorry no long posts and after wednesday there may be no posts till late january sorry peeps

day before finals week

lions and tigers and bears oh my it's finals week
last three days of the semester are finally upon us
so all you out there in blogland if i seem distracted then know you know why lol

ok i have words stuck.....

in my head so here we go

Melodies of life are so soft

many go unnocticed

but when sung out loud

the truth comes to light

one can change the world

two can save it

A secret song of the elements

whispers when the sun shines

it is written on snowflakes

A tree is nothing more than time

elsewise it is a seed

how do you want to be remembered

do you want to be remembered

in the song everything is but one note

some are just louder than others

ok i probably made no sense it's the fever from the flu talking here people never trust a sick person with internet access lol I love all my readers even the mentally defecient ones so yeah sick vomiting and fever no fun i know i posted twice today kneel before the insane blog writer lol I'm sorry readers talk to you when i feel better lol

and oh yeah i picked the picture to the right to represent me today lol

a single star a single wish

by light of moon grant this wish

the song of stars tells me this

I belong with you tonight

batheing in the starlight

sorry more random words lol

this may be my longest post ever

hahahahhahahahhahahahhahaha

lol

sorry i'll stop now

no really i will

fine have it your way

burger king lol

sorry this fever is making me crazy lol

Last day of class

ok i know it is my last of college courses for the semester and i really should be there but the vomit I've been spewing all day disagrees with me. I would get sick right before finals would't u know it peoples oh well back to cruising the web.

k cause i'm here

Swirling snow come to a halt
free the sun and the stars
so we may bath in their light
Swirling snow come to a halt now

This day is sooooo slow

okay can this day move any slower, well looks like i have to move out of my nice spacious room this semester into a small dinky one with someone else. I'm not sure i like any of my options either, well maybe one, but i'd rather stay in here.

My bad day is almost over

Hi neglected blog well only one more class today unfortunately my bf works late today and i can't talk to him, boooooooo, the bright news it's almost the weekend at this point yes. ok like promised the second god from my book at least her general idea right now


Skala Goddess of ice. One of the gods of the first four elements and one of the first encountered by Ashelia used by Freeza to boost her ice powers to spread the power of the silence.
Her symbol is an opal, A bit bitchy but for everyone’s one good, one of three sisters of ice the three being Skala the oldest, Irinia the second oldest and Chila the youngest

well that is the barebones of her character right now and she lives within the glacier ridge with her sisters

blog I've been neglecting u

Ok so here i am once again on a sunday night alone i ask u why people why. Anyhow now that my dramatic moment is over I am falling in love with final fantasy 8 all over again. I love the junction system and it is my second favorite battle system what's my favorite you all must be asking yourself why surely nine's system or ten's too well anyway i'm out lol.

tuesday groan.....

why does it have to be tuesday. I want it to be next week friday. not much of a post but all i can think of writing right now.

Late sunday

not going to write much cause i'm tired and well sleep is vital lol. This thursday me and my boyfriend will be celebrating a one month aniversary yeah!!!!!!!!!! seems like so much longer and in this case that's a good thing.

Wake up Peoples it's Friday

ok it's friday and my lecture was cancelled so i enjoyed a wonderful morning talking to my boyfriend. It's my cousin's birthday today he is turning 7 and i got him some pokemon cards cause he asked for them specifically the penguin card and well that's what he is getting. Sorry i will be out of touch with my blog this weekend till sunday maybe and well their should be enough stuff here to keep any new reaader occupied sorry for the old ones no new stuff till i get back.

It's thursday

Hey all you people out there in blog land. I've been neglecting you i know, I'm sorry I've been busy, but anyway here I am. So here we go

Song among the stars
and thoughts in chaos
life in time
and souls in dreams
truth in light
and lies in darkness
passion in fire
and tranquility in water
peace in nature
and war in thunder
flighty in air
and stoic in earth

sorry just going on a book character writing spree and well it's going well. I love u my lovely boyfriend even if u fall asleep on me most nights now lol, i love you

hey day of homework finished

ok had a lot to do today, but it's all done yeah!!!!!!
had to
write a speech
write an anthropology paper
write a gallery report
finish lab data collection
and study for my history exam thursday morning

as you can see not a lot of fun no no no no so this weekend i will be relaxing hopefully lol

It's monday

ok sorry for being away so long, but i was sick again, not fun had two fevers and anyway i'm better now ok. Well I have an art appreciation exam tonight and have been working on the second chapter of my book and it's almost completely typed up as a rough draft now three is just really fragmented ideas as of right now. Anyway a new portion of my blog the god/goddess of the post from my book section. yes i have started a new section of my blog lol.

Rikkuna, God of barriers and sealing, a green kitty in his powerless form (guide form) and a green haired boy when his powers are invoked. Guide to the main character of the book. and more will be found out about his mysterious past as more is revealed lol I mean more about the other gods/goddesses and well maybe not everytime i post a new one will be written about lol so check back often lol.

I'm cured (i hope)

i feel much better even though still sneezing and coughing, i did get kicked out of my speech class no i refusefor coughing too much since we are videotaping our speeches, no i refuse to be taped, do back in my room and headed to my grandparent's to babysit and sleep lol, while making 120 dollars yeah!!!!!!!!!!!! hopefully no more fevers and then tommorow the rest of this goes away yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ugghhhh will the exams never stop

Okay tonight is the study night for my anthropology relationship exam and let me tell you straight relationship theory is different from gay relationship theory, these rules suck and yet i have to remember them it's not fair, on top of that I need groceries. Overall a okay day we will see what comes in the future. Okay reader poll leave a comment: turkey your thoughts about this food, tell all cause my turkey day is coming up lol. Anyway just taking a couple minute break to post something today lol well till i post again I'm out.

Good day all lol

It's thursday you know what that means only one day left till the weekend then it is time to party lol. So anyway, apparently i have a mysteriously dissapearing commentor according to some people, i wonder what is happening lol, anyway it doesn't matter cause everyone who comments that i care about talks to me directly anyway lol. Hey out there my bf if you're reading this I am apologizing on my blog that is how bad i feel about last night okay. Anywho i'll talk to you maybe once tommorow morning and if not signing out till Monday lol.

Okay me and my bf were comparing notes on the final fantasy games and here are our top three
him Odin (still don't understand this one)(FF7,8,9), Shiva (I get and understand)( almost all of them lol), and the Brothers (FF8)

and mine
Levithan (FF7,8,9), Carbunkle (cute but as bad as odin lol) (8,9), and Alexander (7,8, and well 9 too I suppose a brief appearance)

Anyway if you don't know what that is about never mind it lol, I'm just taking a study break from my chem exam tommorow morning and thought i'd get the post out of the way lol

It's humpday

I still have one more class tonight at 5:30-6:30 but today is almost over, found out about a suprise chem test friday and yeah Obama is our new president. I plan on going to my boyfriends this weekend so I'll try to post some stuff thursday and friday to get those of you who read this and don't comment through the weekend lol. Well have a good day everybody hugs to you all.

Election Day

just got back from my first voting experience and it was fun more or less lol. Well let's see I'm in a good mood today since I have money and food yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, the first time I've been able to say that in awhile. Well anyway time is of the essence and I need all I can get lol. Good bye my sweet readers and I'll talk to one of you soon anyway lol.

if you've lost my heart...

you'd better know where to find it lol

Hello Blogland

Hey ya people this is me just wanting to say hi and well this.
Forever in time
I'll be here
Frozen
With the key to my heart
Who can take it
who will break it
who will not even try
What prize is there
just my heart and my stare
but who can be loved
only those that love
dreams lost in the night
come round again
My heart still remembers
The tears I have shed
Should the world be bitter
Tired and fed up
Here is my heart
To stand strong beside
Neverending dreams are impossibe
Just like a neverending storm
neither can last forever
yet only time can tell

I just can't say anything right today

okay I give up I can't talk today serves me right for going agaisnt my horoscope, I hate the blasted sucker I just looked it up of course the first thing listed is let others do the talking today and I just can't shup up I got somebody moving to a different state cause of me my boyfriend is mad at me today can be over anytime it wants to be.

Frustration in the heavens
leads to chaos on the earth
wars are born as men die
men live to die and die to live

ironic isn't it this just sprang into my head
apologies to everyone I offended today
May any god of your choosing watchover and protect you.

crazy wait

don't do anything you'd regret what is it you want from me

dear crazy

tell me who you are so I can talk to you I mean I know who you are you just won't admit it will you. I am happy but if you are who you think you are I still want to be your friend.

Well hey there all

Boo the weekend is over and I'm back from my boyfriends another boo I miss him already,

Time stand still
the moon refuse to move
the light from the stars spills
and cover the earth as I dream

Twilight spread and consume the earth
till time stops and we never have to seperate
my hand in yours till the end
and even then not letting go

the heavenly moon shine down
upon us and give us your strength
on the wings of the angel let us float
and on the wings of the devil protect us from harm

darkness in light
and light in the darkness
one cannot be with out the other
just like us be forever intwined

I love you dedicated to my boyfriend since I didn't have a gift for our one week aniversary and well I feel bad here you go.

any comments I do not like shall be deleted on the spot, deal with it supportive people I like and haters are whores so there. I stick my tongue out at you and laugh hahahahahaha.

Hank Ferrera

that is your name and if you don't stop i will see you banned from campus. And well by your logic you'd be a whore since you had the whore and if you're doing this for the reasons I think you are i wouldn't be able to be with you either than. I love you my dreamish devil and I'm sorry you feel like you have to defend yourself against this man and we are still happy or at least I am. And not that it matters "crazy" but I still don't plan on having sex for a long while so there I stick my tongue out at you.

Melodies of Life

are often heard

and filled with strife

till they fly away on the wings of a bird

okay crazy

just answer one question crazy are you doing this to get back at me or him?

okay crazy is right how crazy is that!

well crazy you are right my bf was a whore and well I don't care so there.

crazy is a ass

sorry for not writing recently I would like to say whoever crazy is and I have a very good idea who he is, is an ass who wouldn't know love if it bit him and I don't care if you've had my boyfriend highly unlikely by the way. I love you my dreamish devil and that's all that matters, leave all the nasty comments you want crazy it will only make me like you less. so there sticks my tongue out at you.

okay post 2 of the day

I love you my dreamish devil, sorry just wanted to start the message with that and well here is my new vid http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CVLDSrUEsM0 so please rate and comment

sorry for not writing yesterday

I was busy making a video for my boyfriend so I didn't get a chance to write yesterday. If anybody wants to see the vid its on youtube and here is a link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8QrT6boA-zk don't judge too harshly as it is my first vid and well I like it so there, okay current projects would be a new vid, finishing chapter 1 of my book and posting it here and what else continue to find all these poems I keep writing. I want to shout out to my boyfriend hi there my dreamish devil, I love you and will talk to you soon. I would like to apologize to all my suitors again I never meant to hurt you if any of you still read this, I just can't control what my heart feels and I'm sorry that at least one of you feels very hurt, I'm sorry all I can do is keep apologizing. sad isn't it I can't give you the things you want yet somehow you all want me, but not with anyone else it's not fair to me I made my choice and I ask that you respect it. That is all for today, I'm not sure If I will post tommorow or not we'll see

I'm sorry to any suitor who reads this before I tell you in person

I'm sorry oh so very sorry I'm not your one. My heart has been stolen and well I like it this way. I'm sorry again, but my heart said yes finally to someone. That is all, all hate mail will be burned or shot down do not waste your time get right back into the game and find the one you're looking for.

okay the first of several poems dedicated to my love

Staring into the reflection
Of my heart now I see
My raw emotion
I can just be me
Once drifting on the waves
Now breaking free
No more wandering the caves
Of darkness in me
Watching the flowers bloom
Their petals floating on the air
My heart going boom
Whenever you’re there
Don’t run away
I give my heart to you
I treasure you everyday
Watching the waves of blue
Secretly loving every moment
I pray its not just my dreams
Never suffering from disappointment
Coming up with new schemes
Not many memories
At least not yet
We’ll make our own stories
That’s my bet

Again really sorry to all my suitors I didn't know it was going to end up this way honestly.

Boo the school week starts it's cycle on more time

Okay it is Sunday afternoon here and just writing about a little of everything I guess. Okay announcements first, I have no class at 7:45 in the morning on Tuesday, I can sleep in yeah!!!! or not, I went to go see my mother today to bring me all of my winter clothes, warm and fuzzy, but that's not the point. Okay officially over the flu yeah!!!!!!! I guess all good news today since I'm feeling generous a short verse for you all hope you like it <3

Okay the verse gods aren't with me right now but before the end of the night (she'll be mine) sorry song from the movie Anastasia popped into my mind here, by the end of the night I'm sure inspiration will strike otherwise it's time for the book to start making it's journey out to the vast web.

Okay my reader question for the day is How are you feeling? leave a comment and the emotional winner shall receive a poem to be published here in my small world blog

okay then till next you read me

okay my late night blogging efforts are here at last my flu has gone away enough that I can sit up and really write this properly. okay I would publicly like to thank the devil (no I am not a satanist) he would be my commentor and one of seven suitors check out his comment to the section below and you'll find him as sweet as I do. so here dedicated to the devil (I won't use his real name so if anyone does read this then he won't be embarassed)

Suddenly the stars light
up my sky
Though we may fight
It's with you I fly

You'd be the fish
I'd be your twin
if that was your wish
cause you can win

my heart
my soul
it's just a start
while the distant bells toll

and this is dedicated to the dreamish devil who is working toward winning my heart, and he is doing a very fine job of it. Hey readers if you want a dedication say and spread the word of this cool new blog and have the person say you sent them and you'll get a dedication.

oh current rankings for the seven suitors in case any of the seven is reading this at this moment some of you are shining some not so you have code names, but you should figure out who you are.

1 Dreamish Devil
2 Mr. Sexy
3 I wanna be bored
4 fire bird
5 My heart's DJ
6 artistic heart
7 embarassed crustation

okay that should include enough secrecy to keep you from finding and challenging each other for my love, all terms are used endearingly and if you want I can change yours but message me in private don't leave a comment here about it, or if you can't figure out who you are.

Hey there my crazy blog readers

okay all two of you maybe out there in internet land. I have the flu. Yeah don't sound so depressed. A spontaneous verse and then I'm out for the day

Once the sun has set
the stars will shine
now nothing is left
you will never be mine

dedicated to my suitor who made me cry but gave me a rose, the devil

Decisions decisons

okay through my craigslist ad I met seven guys who seem interested in me and am now in the process of singling out the ones I don't want, it's a lot harder than I though it would be, and well I wan't expecting so many responses. That's all for today and well I guess here is a new verse and dedicating it to my first commentor and he is an english teacher, yea, round of applause.

Hidden in the shadows
My heart is beating
Not looking through the windows
but rather dreaming

of the one who I will
make my own.
use my skill
to find that tone.

It's a song I never knew
lovestruck straight through my heart.
I'm stuck like glue
on you, right from the start.

Thank you hope all my readers like this one, I think more than one of you finnaly exist! even if you don't leave comments keep reading.

Thursday Night (what a bore)

So far no one out there cares enough to read this. I shouldn't say that, but if anyone besides me does read this then they refuse to comment, booooooo. Yes I'm booing the no commenting readers at least if anyone reads this besides me leave a comment I'm begging you this poem will be dedicated to the first person to comment on my blog, okay, well I have to try something.

Set to wonder
why no one cares
strike with thunder
to avoid the stares.

Someone read
about my stife
about where I lead
my life

pity my you dreamers
lend me your desire
Have pity on me schemers
to find my fire

okay this is dedicated to the first one to comment on anything on my blog. Thank you to whoever does well I guess first you'd have to read my blog and since no one but me has I find that doubtful.

okay this reminds me of my cat and well I just thought since no one is reading this anyway, except for myself I might as well put it here. Today is mole day!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For those of you who don't know a mole is 6.02 * 10^23 atoms or molecules of a substance and today is the day we celebrate this apparently, as I found out in my chem discusion section today. I may end up posting more tonight or not since I'm the only one reading this it doesn't matter. Please somebody read this and leave I comment so I know I'm not doing this in vain.

Hey somebody find this and read it!

Please someone read this. Okay the first in many poems to be added.

Beneath the starry sky,
watching the waves splash on to the shore,
I could fly,
but I want more,

My heart is a stone
you pierced with your words,
all alone,
without and swords.

Would you stay with me
to explore the wonder?
Would you stay with me,
through the thunder?

Finally belonging
within my heart.
This longing,
would we part?

Okay hope whoever reads this likes this. Again I do take requests to do things like short stories and poems. These will either be posted here or sent straight to you depending on what you want.

A New Day (more or less)

okay officially on the Thursday side of the night and well here we go new blog stuff that has changed since I don't know a couple hours. Not much hmmm..... I should really wait until tonight to edit this but I can't sleep so here we go. I'm 18, a college freshman, a chem major, taking 16 credits, the courses being Chem 103, Art Appreciation, Public Oral Communications, Global Origins of the Modern World, and Anthropology 101. Well today it's just Global Origins of the Modern World and Anthropology, at starting at 7:45 in the morning. I don't have any new writings to post at this time, If your reading this then realize this is a new blog and well all three of the posts are new. I live on campus with three roommates who are trying to sleep right now, oh well usually this is the other way around, I'm sleeping and they are not. I think I'm single so if any gay guy in the area of La Crosse is interested here I am, think about age first, I don't need more old perverts trying to have a "relationship" with an 18 year old. (shameless self promotion is something I do well apparently.) as said earlier an support (emotional, not monetary) my readers can give me will speed up the appearance of material and may get you a dedication. Anyway time to sleep. Good Morning (hahaha.... snore)

Well more about me.

Well okay since I just started this blog here is some background info on my current life. I'm going to college and looking for love at the same time. I'm gay so I knew it would be difficult, less than in my hometown a town of less than a 1,000 people, and well I had five interested guys I met through craigslist and it was going all well and good this is about a week and a half ago I guess. Now all of a sudden they all have disappear off the face of the earth for the past 6 days, I mean just what does one have to do to find love? Well now that is out of the way any requests for poems or stories, I write fiction and poems when I'm bored and I guess I'll take your requests into mind the next time I'm writing something. Right now current projects are to finish the first chapter of the book I feel like writing (more details on that in the future) and to find and fix up a collection of old love poems to be posted here cause I still need to find the love of my life. Well I hope somebody is reading this otherwise I just spent this time uselessly. Well leave your responses at benchristopehrson93@yahoo.com if you want to contact me directly (and want a response at any speed faster than a turtle) where I'll read them and if I like what you have to say maybe include you in my next post I think this will be a weekly thing kinda like a reader of the week thing, but the blog will have something new everyday (OMG I have to start thinking about what I'm going to write tommorow!!) so check back often on somedays there may be more than one post depending on how the creative juices are flowing. Any support you may have to offer would be welcome.

Okay my first blog what to write

okay to get this thing rolling how about a poem I wrote I'll mostly post either stories and poems I've written and/or anything funny that happens in my life.

Journeying through my life,
wandering alone,
my heart filled with strife,
a mournful tone.

I walk on to see my dreams
lost in the night of dark,
falling for everyone's schemes
looking for the spark

that will light my torch, my fire.
I keep searching night and day
to find my one desire
So far all my heart has said is nay.

When will I find love
I've been looking so long.
It's like I'm lost in the sea I dove
into just to hear the song.

The melody of my heart,
yet to find it's harmony.
Then I'll never let us part
through any disharmony.

okay this was written about my current feelings on love hence the current question how many of my readers are in love, all none of you.